Thanksgiving Sucked

Well yes my holiday did suck! It snowed, which wasent bad. Rich went out to plow for a few hours. He came home and we went to my moms. Dinner was ok, I dont think we (me and Rich) really felt all that welcome though. Mom gave plenty of attention to Cara, and directly ignored me while I was talking. Dad, Brain, Rich and Lucy had all feel asleep in the living room. Mom, me, Maggie, and Cara all sat at the kitchen table talking. I finally got sick of my mother hanging all over Cara and point blank ignoring me that i got up and went into the livingroom. Dad and Brain had moved downstairs and Rich and Lucy were still sleeping on the love seat.

When Rich woke up I was like " Are you ready?"

WE LEFT

I think he was just as happy as I was to get out of that house. We didnt do anything Friday night, but Saturday was another story.

Mike came over and the three of us all went to the pool hall for some drinks and a couple of games. Mike and I did a whole lot of shots, Rich had been drinking since noon so he was already buzzed. When we got home Mike left and Rich and I got in the typical drunk fight and he went to bed. I then inturn went through his phone!

OHH LORDY WHAT DID I FIND??
Numbers numbers numbers! So of course I drunk dial ( what kind of drunk would I be if I didnt?) His ex girlfriend answers! We talked for about 4 hours while he was passed out in bed. When he woke up Shit hit the fan..

She was telling me that they had been seeing each other for the past year and had been trying to work things out. That she had broke it off with him back in September. Alot of things made sence. Some things didnt.

He told me that he had called her, checking on the kids (not his kids, hers, but they were together for 4 years) And that he was trying to butter her up so he could get his stuff back.
I dont know what to believe. She said he never worked the whole time they were together. She paid for everything and is now in debt because of him. Now hes working and I get his check, so im covered on that much.

Im not sure if im just blind inlove with him, or if im just afraid i'll never find anyone else and thats why im with him. Im very confused. He asked me if i wanted him to move out. And I dont! I love him and I love what we have together. Im just not sure whats really going on.

So im keeping track of everything, im not going to just put things in the back of my mind. When I think somethings not right im going to call him on it.. Hopefully that wont have to happen.