Looking for help

Im feeling lost, so unbearably lost. I cant think straight, and im scared!

I was reading Iris's blog the other day, She is the reason i started this blog. I truely think so is a wonderful person. And I worry about her constantly. And the other day all my fears came true, when she finaly posted again I wasnt suprised to hear that she had been in the hospital. She had overdosed on sleeping pills. It broke my heart, I cried all day wishing she hadnt shut off her comments link. I think Iris just needs a friend, same as me.

In the past I have thought about taking pills, hanging myself, putting a knife to my wrist. I havent had those feelings in a very long time. Im just getting scared that it might come back.
That I too, just like Iris will have a slip up.

Im praying for her, I wish her help and love.