Its Wednesday

Its still strange to me the way Wednesday is spelled. It's nothing like the way it sounds. Every time I spell it out I have to say it in my head the way it sounds. Stupid English language.

Im so bored sitting at my desk today, not that bored is a bad thing. Its better than having a day where the world crashes down on me. I need to get out of here though before I freak out.

Rich and I are doing well I think. He's been very busy though. Its kinda like we dont really see each other anymore. He had the fire academy lastnight and tonight I think hes going to the station. Which leaves tommorow night, back to the academy. Maybe Friday we could spend some time together.

Toms been really pressuring me to see him lately. I think my feelings for him might be changing. I wish I could keep him as my bestfriend, and ocational phone sex buddy but I dont think thats going to happen. I just feel myself getting bored with his depression of not seeing me. I know that sounds shallow, I dont mean to be that way. Its just all he ever wants to talk about. And its never going to happen. So Im not really sure how to deal with this.

I had a wonderful night last night, I cleaned the bedroom, put some draws together and put them on the dresser so it looks much cleaner without clothes everywhere. Rich really didnt have anything to say about it when he got home though.

Im hoping he will stick out the Fire Academy and then take the rest of him EMT classes. Next year the Dept wants to put on 5 more full time guys. That is his dream! Im just hoping he can do it. Things would be great then. He would be making more money, which means we could maybe buy a bigger house with room for kids. And when your on the department your on 4 days and then off 4. So that would be alittle cheaper for baby sitters also. I really like the idea of him being a Firemen. My real dad was one for many years, and I believe it is a job to be proud of. It will help him to make some friends in town since he really doesnt know anyone. And maybe I could make some friends also. I dream of those tv shows or movies where the firemen and there wives and kids are all just one big happy family. That would be my ideal life. Being a fire fighters wife and hanging out with other fire fighters wives, with all of our kids running around playing in the back yard.