Being hopeful

Things are up and down right now. I finally had a talk with my mom about everything thats been going on with work and my dad. How im feeling like im very alone in all of this. Im feeling like im taking all the blame on everything when Scott ( my brother) is just as guilty on some of the stuff and he is continuing to do so. Im not doing drugs anymore, he is! And to make matters worse hes doing them at my dads place of business with all his friends.

I told my mom that instead of doing a background check on Rich, he should be paying more attention to whats going on right under his nose. Pay attention when your all drinking beers and then suddenly everyone, one after another is running into the bathroom.; DUH! I wonder whats going on in there???

Anyway my loan went through and im just waiting for my checks to arrive. Im hopeing things will get alittle better after all of this is done.

Rich says he wants to buy me a diamond ring for Christmas! Here's Hopeing! I need to start my shopping, I havent bought 1 gift yet. Theres no money yet to buy anything. So I guess im gonna be one of those last minute shoppers..