Working For DAD

Have you ever heard the fraise "never work with family"? Well i can tell you it has it's good point's and it has it's bad! My dad owns his own Mack Truck repair shop, Where my two older brothers used to work, Scott and Steve. Steve Now lives in NC where he is a car chief on a Nextel Cup car, he was the only smart one out of us all who left town in a hurry. Scott left the shop a few years ago and works for himself now. And then theres me, left to pick up the pieces when the two of them left. I cant leave, my dad knows nothing about the "paper" end of running a business, he can twist a wrench like nobody has seen, but thats the extent of it. Before Steve left he had managed to hide a good $300,000.00 out of the business for his "race car" thing. Buying motors, tires, cars, trailers, and what ever else he needed to be the "big time" driver that he had dreamed of being since he was a kid. Dad figured out what was going on after the fact, chocked it up to "thats just Steve beeing selfish". I on the other hand got in trouble a couple of weeks ago when Dad found the statement for the company credit card. Oops!!! So i went to Walmart a couple of times, its not like i had a shopping spree on Newbury Street! Other charges that were on it were gas stations and a couple of them for the Deli in town ( where yeah maybe a few times the company bought beer and wine for my house) so the total was like $4000. I know its alot of money, but did i get an ass reaming! "your just like Steve, A God Damn thief" Can you believe that? what i took wasent even close to what Steve did, Im not making excuses but come on! Now Dads like "office guy" checking everything, doesnt trust me as far as he could throw me. Which is fine with me, i know i dont deserve his trust. Everyday coming into work is like walking into Hell for me, everyday there is something else that i had done wrong! So now im going to pay the company back alittle every month to pay it back. Dad said he would forget about it all and pay it himself if i went and got help! HELP, for what? ohhhh my "impulsive shopping"! I dont have a problem, i dont need help, it was just easy to spend someone elses money. Not an excuse, im not proud of myself. But i dont need help! I'll pay him back!!

One the otherside of my wonderful life, Rich and i are going out to dinner tonight. Its going to be are new thing. Since we dont have much money to do anything these days, we work all week so we should get something for just us. Friday's after a long week we can go out, have a few drinks, dinner, and spend some nice time together. I really need to get this thing with Tom under control, i cant stop though, i love him!